Oh right did I mention to any of you why I’ve been acting like this recently (I.e personal text posts, i.e. apology post)? Probably not. In addition to some private issues, I had a checkup this past Tuesday with my doctor because my psoriasis is getting bad lately. Well he looked at it quite a bit…
I do feel sorry for you, but while you made this post, you made it for all the wrong reasons. You made it as a guilt trip. Pointed at me.
I know that you hadn’t been acting psycho ALL because of me because I know you. But this is proof that you aren’t dealing with this properly. You need to have confidence and believe that you’ll be okay, because if you don’t, you will probably end up with bad news. Just take things day by day. Yes, I know that I’m the only one that can fully understand you, but you need to realize that just because you may have a sickness, my world won’t stop for you. I still deal with hard times too. And you know what? I could even die tomorrow, just as much as you could, so no one is more special here, and that’s why I’m still not going to be friends with you, and this is why I’m ignoring you. You hurt me. Whether you might possibly be sick or not.
Don’t expect me to give you mercy. I deserve just as much as you because like I said, sick or not, either one of us could die tomorrow. Regardless, I do wish you all the best. I’m not acting the way I am to make you feel bad. I’m just wanting to move on with my life. And I want you to move on too. I want you to be happy as well. But having me around won’t get you there because you have many things to realize. You still hadn’t grown. I hadn’t either, but I’ve taken the first step. I’m not your only hope, and you have others that you can rely on. But I can’t talk with someone who hurt me like you did. I can’t make a sacrifice just because of this. Please understand this.
Another thing. If you do have this illness, is this how you want to be living for the rest of your life? Think about all of this before you just disregard everything. I do want you to be happy. This is why you should not think about me anymore. Yes, saying this is contradicting, but I’m not letting you think I want you to be miserable. I get mad because you just don’t quit. That’s it. Nothing more, nothing less. Just forget about me. Other people can make you happy. This isn’t healthy for either of us. We broke up for a reason.
I wish you luck and I hope that everything will be okay, because no one deserves to become ill. Just get better, mentally and physically. Please.
Just read and don’t reply.